Since having Lucy I have put aside one of my favorite hobbies for now, baking. As most of you know I love making sugar cookies (hence the name of my blog), decorating them, and giving them away. Even though I am not the best at it, I enjoy doing it but it is so time consuming. Now I know what people mean when they asked me, "when did you find time to do these?" With a baby.... there is no time right now, and I am TOTALLY ok with it... meaning I have a child to care for and that I rather be busy with her anyways than worrying about cookies... have I mentioned I feel so blessed we are parents?
I have gotten my baking fix with other things just not the sugar cookies. One of my favorite finds was due to my new found love for the Pioneer Woman on the Food Network. I have watched her show and have been obsessed with her blog. I encourage you to check it out. In fact... here is a link to one of my favorite deserts (thank you Ree). It is easy, quick, and you can do it in a nap time if needed but it tastes like you baked all day.
http://thepioneerwoman.com/cooking/2011/05/knock-you-naked-brownies/
Enjoy the brownies and save one for me :)
Change
Since becoming a mom, I just have felt this wave of change over me. Not in a bad way, but I am just different, Z's and I relationship is different, just life seems so much more deep and has meaning. I have always wanted to be a mom. When people would ask me what I wanted to be when I grew up, that is what I said. I am thankful that God has chosen us to be parents and have blessed us with Lucy, but it is so different than what I imagined.
I am a person that like structure and a routine...ha! I can throw that out the window as every day is different with Lucy. Like right now, it is almost two in the afternoon and as she sleeps I am sitting at the computer, not showered, still in pajamas, and listening to the washing machine churn away as I have piles of laundry around our home to attend too. My house is not clean, and my junk drawer has now expanded to two. This is so different for me, and even though I am screaming on the inside of these little things... I am letting it go. Cuddles with Lucy are so much more important right now as I will never get this time back with her.
Z and I find ourselves talking diapers, breastfeeding, and falling asleep as we watch a show on TV at 9pm. We have only left the house, together and without Lucy, three times, and we no longer run errands together and go out for coffee on a Saturday morning. Even though our communication has changed, I wouldn't trade it for the world. After going through having a child and seeing Z in the hospital and just how he looks at Lucy and her at him, it melts my heart. The way he looks at me, his admiration for me now (not that it wasn't there before) is amazing. And mine for him. He is a great dad of patience, unconditional love, and sweetness. So, even though we don't kill time together as much, our love for each other is so deep. I used to always hear people say it, but it is so true. I love him more each day.
The biggest change with having Lucy is well, Lucy! She is a sweet girl that smiles so big she squeaks! I cannot wait to hear her laugh. She is precious, but when she wants something, she will let you know. She is so observant and loves exploring the world around her. She doesn't care that I am in my pajamas all day, she doesn't care that I have not showered for the day, and she loves her puppy and his kisses. Lucy is such a little blessing. I do not have one complaint about this girl... she is pretty neat, and I cannot wait to see what she becomes!
As the past ten weeks have brought many changes, more are to come. The next challenge... going back to work. ahh!! I am dreading this so much, but at the same time looking forward to it. I don't know what it will be like, but I am thankful for a flexible job that allows me to still be a hands on mom. I am grateful for my mom who gets to watch Lucy during the day... so blessed.
Ok, blah blah blah... I am writing a lot, but I really should go get that shower! Here are some updated photos of my Lu! May her smile and sweet spirit bless you today, it sure is what gets me through my day!
I am a person that like structure and a routine...ha! I can throw that out the window as every day is different with Lucy. Like right now, it is almost two in the afternoon and as she sleeps I am sitting at the computer, not showered, still in pajamas, and listening to the washing machine churn away as I have piles of laundry around our home to attend too. My house is not clean, and my junk drawer has now expanded to two. This is so different for me, and even though I am screaming on the inside of these little things... I am letting it go. Cuddles with Lucy are so much more important right now as I will never get this time back with her.
Z and I find ourselves talking diapers, breastfeeding, and falling asleep as we watch a show on TV at 9pm. We have only left the house, together and without Lucy, three times, and we no longer run errands together and go out for coffee on a Saturday morning. Even though our communication has changed, I wouldn't trade it for the world. After going through having a child and seeing Z in the hospital and just how he looks at Lucy and her at him, it melts my heart. The way he looks at me, his admiration for me now (not that it wasn't there before) is amazing. And mine for him. He is a great dad of patience, unconditional love, and sweetness. So, even though we don't kill time together as much, our love for each other is so deep. I used to always hear people say it, but it is so true. I love him more each day.
The biggest change with having Lucy is well, Lucy! She is a sweet girl that smiles so big she squeaks! I cannot wait to hear her laugh. She is precious, but when she wants something, she will let you know. She is so observant and loves exploring the world around her. She doesn't care that I am in my pajamas all day, she doesn't care that I have not showered for the day, and she loves her puppy and his kisses. Lucy is such a little blessing. I do not have one complaint about this girl... she is pretty neat, and I cannot wait to see what she becomes!
As the past ten weeks have brought many changes, more are to come. The next challenge... going back to work. ahh!! I am dreading this so much, but at the same time looking forward to it. I don't know what it will be like, but I am thankful for a flexible job that allows me to still be a hands on mom. I am grateful for my mom who gets to watch Lucy during the day... so blessed.
Ok, blah blah blah... I am writing a lot, but I really should go get that shower! Here are some updated photos of my Lu! May her smile and sweet spirit bless you today, it sure is what gets me through my day!
Update
I know this is going to sound weird, but after seven weeks of having Lucy... it is finally starting to settle in that I am a mom. Z and I are actually parents to this amazing little life. At the same time, I cannot believe that tomorrow she will be seven weeks old (what??)! I am just amazed. I am just so humbled and that God has blessed us with this little life. I have had so many emotions and thoughts over the past few weeks, and as she gets older and we are getting to know this little life more.... they continue. I am just so amazed that she is ours.
Lucy is one precious little girl. She is starting to recognize me, Z, and giving us smiles out of joy and recognition rather than just gas. She loves to kick and play on the floor, but loves her cuddles and to be rocked to sleep. Even though these are little things, it is life of a seven week old. So thankful I have time from work to enjoy these weeks with her. She is one special girl and I cannot wait to see the woman that she becomes, but in the meantime I will not take any moment with this little life for granted.
Through the past seven weeks it has brought a challenge/adjustment for Z and I, but as our love for Lu has grown... ours for each other has grown in a different way as well. We make a great time and even though their are moments... I wouldn't change anything for the world. He is a great man and I am so thankful that I get to do life beside him. I am one lucky girl.
I have to say that Baxter, our dog, has really adjusted well to Lu being a part of the family as well. He watches for her, hates when she cries, and is always her protector when she is in the swing or bouncy. He loves being a big brother. I cannot wait until she gets bigger to chase him around the house... so fun.
Well, there is a little update, Lu is starting to stir... time to go do the best job on earth... be a mom! Pictures coming soon.
One Month Old!
Our little one is one month old today! (WHAT?!?) I cannot believe. I know these pictures are amateur, but I as her mom needed to document the occasion. She is such a doll, and as you can tell from the pictures starting to show some smirks and smiles (it melts my heart every time... even if it is just gas).
You cannot tell by these photos as she appears to be one happy baby, today is one of those days were she wants to do nothing but eat and be by her mom. It is great to be needed, but a selfless day for me as a shower and getting dinner in the crock pot are just not happening. Although today is somewhat a tough day, I would not trade it for the world. I am so thankful I get this time with her and bonding. It is hard for me to think that four weeks have gone by, and I only have eight more weeks with her while on leave from work!!
I love this little life more and more each day, and with the recent events of the Newton school shooting, it makes me want to hold her in my arms forever thinking that will keep her safe and protected from the world.
Ok, well our ten minute nap is over... got to go get some cuddles...
She is Here!
After hearing so many birth stories, having anxiety, being scared, and being excited... we now have our own story... Lucy's story. She is here! Lucy Rose was born on Monday, November 19th at 3:54pm! She was 8lbs 4oz, and 22 inches long (I think she will be on the basketball court with her dad before we know it!).
We are adjusting to being new parents, and it is everything I thought it would be and more. I just love this little peanut and we hardly know each other! She is a sweet baby girl and we are so blessed, humbled, and in awe that God chose us to be her parents. God has blessed us and even though some say we have been through enough, it is about time... yeah, I would like to think that too, but we are on this journey and it just goes to show that in God's perfect timing, he will bless us. I couldn't imagine it any other way. Because what we have been through, I have not forgotten those two, but I appreciate the one in my arms so much more.
Even though my days consist of sweatpants (lucky to get a shower) and being inside at home, I am so happy to be here. I love life so much more because this little one is in my life. Z and I have grown closer and admire each other so much more... it is a deep love and I am so grateful for my little family. Even Baxter (the dog) enjoys Lucy... he won't leave a room without her!
So thankful, so blessed. I truly can say right now... I am loving my life.
Getting Ready
After my doctor's appointment, I got anxious and realized this whole baby thing is a reality, and it will be here before we know it. As the doctor completed his exam, he said not to travel as he could feel the baby's head and things were starting to progress. WHAT?!? I could not believe it. I have been blessed, I think, with an easy pregnancy (my husband might think otherwise) that this whole thing just has not felt real, but I guess it is! As soon as I got home from my appointment, I shared with Z and the crib that was still in the box... yep, it went up last night as both are anticipating our daughter's arrival.
I am praying for health and safety for this baby and myself. Selfishly I do not want anything to happen, I do not want complications or hardship as I think we have been through enough. At the same time I declare victory in Jesus and whether it is a smooth or rough delivery, whether it is a healthy baby or there are complications.... this is our gift from God. This is the journey he has us on, and I know we can do anything through him!
I think I need to make some cookies to celebrate this occasion soon.... this baker has not put an apron on for a while...hmmm....
Bouncy Baxter
Well, here we are now 36 weeks into this pregnancy! Praise God! We have been working on getting things put together and finally opening gifts to get our house ready for baby girl in a couple weeks. I think this little guy, Baxter, knows something is up, or at least he thinks all these new goodies are for him. This is where I found him when I came home for lunch yesterday! In the bouncy chair! I do not know what we are going to do when baby girl is here, I guess we will have to get one for her, and one for the dog! Good to know that it is comfortable :)
Baxter has been so sweet as I think he knows something is up. He has been protecting me, cuddling with me, and even will put his head on my belly... he is no dummy. I love having him a part of our family and I really look forward to seeing him get along with his baby sister.
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